Well, once again everything's steadily falling apart and I'm stuck at one of those "What the hell am I supposed to do now?" moments.
I'm still out of work. That makes three months now - and my meagre savings have, once again, managed to dwindle away into nonexistance while I search for a job ($3 left in my wallet, emergency bus money!) Why did I move back to the east coast again?
I spend a lot of time every day job hunting, usually around 6-8 hours, sometimes more, sometimes less, depending on things, and so far, it's all come to nothing. Savings is gone, credit cards are now 2 months late (payments I could easily make on even a barely nonexistant salary,) and every potential prospect I get is constantly shot down.
Is location the problem? I constantly find jobs I'm qualified for, but as it turns out, I'm always -not- qualified for them. This is the domain of the fabled Government Contractor - and so, virtually every single tech job requires at -least- a current TS/SCI clearance. CURRENT. Not "are able to get." I don't have a current one, though the matter is moot, because I couldn't get one because of my credit anyway (especially now, with increasing balances and no payments!)
So, I can't get any jobs in my field that I'm qualified for. Fine, fine. I resort to light-office work and retail. Hell, I have to pay the bills, and when you aren't working, it doesn't matter -what- you do for a job, as long as it pays the bills.
Again, we hit a problem. I put in applications, send in resumes, and always hear back with a "We're sorry, but you're over qualified for this position." or "Because of your qualifications, we're afraid you wont stay with us for a long time." What?? Excuse me, let me be the judge. Yes, I know I'm over-qualified to sit in front of a cash register all day long - but does that mean I'm not going to do it? If it puts food in my mouth, and pays my credit card bill I'll stand there in a stupid cow costume handing samples of pseudo-chicken to people all day long! What do I care as long as it lets me -survive-? Yes, I may be over-qualified for your job of running a cash register, or answering your phone all day long - but I'm not too proud to take it. Money, is a /huge/ incentive - and the last time I checked, even a paltry (well, by local terms,) $8 an hour is a WORLD better than my current $0 an hour, now isn't it?
People always tell me "You need to move." "Move to a better location." etc. If it were only that simple! I can't even make a $15 or $40 credit card payment - I need a trim that I can't affored - how am I supposed to be able to move halfway across the country, or even halfway across the state? It's not a realistic answer by any stretch of the imagination.
How did I manage to get myself trapped like this? Considered not-qualified for any job I /can/ do, and considered over-qualified for any job I could otherwise readily get... It's pretty disheartening to know that at the current moment I'd be in better shape financially if I hadn't bothered with a single bit of post-high school education or training of anykind, you know? Then at least I'd be able to get a job.